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May is almost gone... already?!?!
Oh I feel terrible. It's May! I haven't written a blog in so long... :( I feel absolutely horrible, since my last post was talking about how busy I am. And it's so true. I'm busy. And it's not going to stop. And unfortunately, I put other things on the back burner. And this was one of them.
But okay. Sometimes, it's less about feeling guilty about what has been missed, and more about jumping in right where you are. So here we are.
I am less than a month away from seeing my oldest children. I'm super excited about it! I cannot wait for them to come running off of the plane! I already had some people get me down about them not being here for that long. But I can't focus on that. I have to focus on the positive! Right?!
Also, today, I got the long awaited (okay, it was only a week awaited) phone call about the STUPID CPS investigation that was going on. OH that's right, I haven't been on here to talk about it. So basically, the twins weren't gaining enough weight. Pediatrician sent us to a specialist. Specialist called CPS and told them that we weren't feeding them enough... yea... okay. SO the next morning, CPS knocks on my door and proceeds to begin their investigation. I had to show them our cabinets where we keep all the baby food. I had to show them where the babies played and slept. I had to prove that I am not this horrible parent that neglects her children. She was prying into all sorts of personal information about why my big kids don't live with me. She was making phone calls to our pediatrician (who had no concerns btw), and also wanted to talk to my counselor that I see (for my own personal benefit). It was nuts. I felt so offended. And I honestly felt betrayed. I told the pediatrician at our next visit that we would NOT be taking the twins back to that place. There was NO WAY. And I also told her that if she didn't feel like she couldn't handle this "issue" on her own, I would seek a new pediatrician for my kids. SO that about sums that up... hah.
Let's see, what else has been happening...?
I've been getting great grades in my classes... so that's a positive. It's been interesting trying to juggle all of that stuff at once, but I've been making it happen. Go Me!
Work has been about the same. Hectic. But good. It's stressful (but what job isn't). I just take things one day at a time. I am trying to make sure that I am not taking on too much crap at once. I am trying to learn how to delegate more. And that seems to be helping.
Sleep has been something that is becoming harder and harder to come by. But what else is new? I mean, c'mon. I'm a mom. Sleep is pretty much last on the list, next to my own nutrition (just kidding about that one... but I definitely don't eat as well as I would like to).
*sigh* okay, that's all I have for tonight. I promise, I am going to try to get better at this. I really am.
